Today has been a long day. I missed an alarm, dashed to school, checked my email, and I found a note about an unobserved observation from my assistant principal, and another message saying that I needed to meet with him. This means that I got a Needs Improvement for my observation. Comments on the observation included some that were valid – I had absolutely forgotten to put up my agenda, but others that were not. And those are the ones that are hurting my feelings, that are making me wonder why I teach. Apparently I was “relying worksheets” and the kids weren’t learning a thing.
Those worksheets are not just any old worksheets. They’re from a packet I bought off TpT for Gatsby, and they’re common core aligned, and they’re awesome. And, he chose to observe me during the last week of the quarter as I was asking the students to finish any odds and ends lingering from the worksheets so that I could grade them. Of course my WHOLE lesson wasn’t just this packet and me saying, “Here, do this. No I won’t help you.”
Here’s my truth, and thus the the problem. I first knew that I wanted to teach as a first grader, no joke. So, that means I was approximately SEVEN when I knew this was what I wanted to do. I cannot brush off criticism because this is all I’ve ever wanted. Instead it winds up feeling, to quote my students, like this guy is “coming at my life”.