Day 66 of 180 2016-17

Professional jealousy exists, and I am most certainly not above it.  Every year or so there’s a new darling here in our department.  The problem, as one can guess, is that when you fall from grace, you fall hard.  Everything that once you were praised for, becomes something suspect that you are doing to deliberately to be rude (obviously).  It’s hard not to feel hurt/slighted, and in turn, I find that I am filled with petty jealousy.  I want to be positive and supportive.  And in truth, at least 80% of me truly is happy that my peers are being appreciated.  Unfortunately, that 20% of me wants to cackle and say “Just. You. Wait.”  Ugh.  I need to kick myself in the head and get over it.