Had all day, all staff PD on Tuesday. On the downside, this means today is only day 46 and not 47, on the plus side, it means today is only day 46 and not 47. In the middle of PD I was so angry. I didn’t understand why we were all suffering through this CRAP. What was the point? Why should we care? Etc. Etc. Etc.
Part of that, no doubt, has been my negativity about my school in general. Another part came from – once again – getting conflicting messages about what we’re supposed to be doing. The last part definitely came from my colleagues. What is it about being in PD that makes teachers want to prove their smarter than the presenters, and want to attack them?
However, it’s a new day and I have a new outlook. I’m trying to remain positive, because the truth is always that I love my students and they deserve me to be in as good a space as possible. So I tried some new group work patterns and roles today. It was … clunky … at best, but hopeful.
I love to see that my groups all want to support each other, but I want them to be honest in their reviews of each other. That honesty is what will help them grow. Instead, every single student said that everyone in their group did WONDERFUL, PERFECT, A PLUS PLUS PLUS work. Uhhh, sure they did. That’s why you were complaining to me about so-and-so not working the day before.
I got around some of that by having them reflect individually in their notebooks, but we’ll see. I might have to change up the rubric to have more specific questions, or make each student fill out the rubric for homework and return it. Maybe the fear was that someone else would see it and have their feelings hurt? Silly sensitive students and their silly sweetness!